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June 07, 2005
Ramblings
In life, there are things that you have to do to make them work.
A grand 5-year plan was hatched in a non-descript part of my cramped three-room flat on Monday morning. It was a plan like no other and it would take a lot of sacrifice, pain and sorrow for it to work. Indeed, when and if I get there, it will easily become the biggest achievement of my life. It is grand only on a personal scale, since having a persona like mine will guarantee a life of simplicity, obscurity and, dare I say it, mediocrity.
At the end of it, hopefully, there would be options for me that would be far better than what I currently have. On reading this and this, my resolve was further strengthened. It would be a career path like no other and possibly it might induce sorrow in my old man’s mind to see me doing this just for the sake of the quest for a better life. Inevitably doubts will arise. Inevitably, it will be a treacherous path ahead, if I were to make this decision and act on the plan. Inevitably, people will question the logic behind the plan in the small-picture perspective while neglecting totally the big picture it would paint.
Ever since the plan popped into my head, I never felt so purposeful in my life. Now, I have a mission to accomplish and a goal to work towards. I have wasted the prime years of my life wandering in the wilderness and trying all sorts of things to make life better. Now, the vision is clear and simple.
It was this plan that finally put paid to my decision-making as to whether I should pay through my nose to participate in a church-cum-personal retreat next week. The getaway would provide me with some breathing space to ponder over stuff. All the personal space I would be privy to in the hotel room would give me some peace and quiet to twiddle my thumbs and estimate the costs of embarking on this not-very-well traveled path.
How my 2005 or, for that matter the rest of my life, would turn out would depend a lot on what could happen in the next few weeks.
Posted by D W at June 7, 2005 03:39 PM
Comments
glad that u have a plan, it changes everything!
Posted by: teacup at June 12, 2005 06:04 PM