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April 19, 2005
Images From the Fuzzy Past (Part 1)
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It was the first time I met her. Now, it was her physical body that I was seeing, not one represented only by the words of her thoughts. I watched her quietly as she sat there, holding some beverage in a mug on her hand. Unlike the trend then, she had shoulder-length wavy hair which curled a little towards the ends. The slight tan on her skin confirmed her interest in sporty activities. Possibly sea sports, I told myself.
It was not merely an exercise in identifying a crush at first sight. Sometimes words could pave the way for an impression to be crystalised when you finally meet the persona. Of course, the reverse could happen as well, when you realized that the persona did not match your first impressions of that person.
It could well have been a lonely night for me, like any other, especially it was the night on the eve of a public holiday. I was there simply for the company but I did not anticipate that she would be there as well.
Our gazes met and she was the first to initiate a smile as if to acknowledge my presence and to tell me that she knew who I was. I returned the gesture but dared not allow my gaze to linger on for a tad longer, since it would possibly give away those emotions fluttering in my heart at that moment.
A week later, I shared with a mutual friend about this particular moment. That friend did not say much in response but gave me a link which would give me access to a place where she kept her more intimate thoughts away from the prying eyes. After reading a few paragraphs, my heart was effectively broken.
We have never met on any social occasion since then and all remained in my mind was a fuzzy impression and those wavy curls of hers…
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I have been doing a bit more writing these days. On a more retrospective mode, I reckon. And with a big occasion coming up, I am embarking on a little personal writing project. Depending on how things go, I really hope I can see this through.
Posted by D W at April 19, 2005 05:48 PM
Comments
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life's a bitch.
i hope to see the fruits of your writing labour too.
Posted by: fhope at April 20, 2005 01:34 PM