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March 15, 2005
"I Don't Like Him"
Journaling has taken a back seat in my life recently. Perhaps it is because I have disabled comments and everything sounds as though I am talking to myself. In other words, keeping a not-so-private diary of sorts takes some getting used to.
Life has been ok, in the midst of uncertainties and to a certain extent, despair. Right now, the main thorn on my side is my career, which is in the doldrums and it does not help the fact that the cell gets more claustrophobic by the day. If I had the nerve, I would post entry after entry about people’s stupidity and other unfair things at work that many slaves like I would be familiar with. The problem is I do not have the guts and short of getting sued till my underwear falls off, I would rather be a non-descript entity in the vast expanse of cyberspace.
The aspect of love life has been settled barring a disaster of gargantuan proportions. Although I am still baffled by how someone on God’s good earth will have an interest in yours truly, I will just bring it on and see how far we can go with what we have.
More worrying for me is how other aspects of my life, which I once enjoyed, have faded away. The joy of stepping into a CD shop, the joy of going to Sim Lim (for games or other geeky stuff), the joy of supporting the favourite football club and other things in life which I once cherished, have gone away. All I am left with seem to be watered-down versions. Even writing and journaling, activities that got me into a little frenzy, have almost become a chore. Possibly this is a reflection that my thoughts are no longer worth a mention, even on my own site.
I guess this new “me” will take some getting used to, as well. All I can say now is, “I don’t like him”.
Posted by D W at March 15, 2005 06:13 PM